Small Argument, treat it wif a Laughter.....HA HA HA!!

Hey, is it my fault? I dont like the feeling quarrel up wif ppl or even my sister....For being very sure, this time i dun think i'm wrong....then y am i asking such question in the very first place?Becuz....i nid a supportation....Actually, i am ntg or alrite if she refuse to bring me out, i love to stay in the hse alone, n i havent even finish revising my exam stuff... To be honest, i din angry at all, is true!! Juz tat i'm a person that easily cry, very often,if i heard smthg vry touching or being hurt, my tears will flown out without my control, same goes to my laughter, i will laugh till non stop if sum1 tell me a joke....i dun think tat is a problem for me!!!This is wat we known as feeling....So,why is my sis treating my feeling so harshly? I bet she control her feeling worst than mine....She said i am crazy enuf 2 hide myself in d room n cry...n nt 2 bring me out for shopping or elsewhere, n nt to inform her wat i want or wat is my plan for my future pathway! Emm....actually i dont reali care 4 her harsh word....she is a person like tat....That's no any demand to change her attitude, so i hav to learn to look another way or 'angle' on the matter in order to least down the possibilities of quarreling btw us...For sure is that nt to adapt her attitude....n i wont!!!All of us hav our own perception, no one can or expect others to agree wif their particular view...n it is nt fair enuf.....I admitted tat i acted rude on u juz now, i will apologize, bt i juz voiced out my dissatisfaction wif ur harsh word on me....I am nt a slave or maid which able 2 treat ur harshly words wif a nothing, it is impossible for me.....

No matter how, u r still my sister as i noe it is juz a small arguements in life....So,tat's no reason 4 me for being stubborn with tis tiny small bean stuff...Haha...
From now on, i will learn to care 4 other's feeling before i say smthg harshly towards them....

Today.....My life.....My thoughts....

Lol.....my image totally spoilt ad...bt nvm, i still like this pic...This is me!!!

Yi Ling and I was so concentrated preparing all the food

Big Big All Gals Family

After undergone so many incident in the past....Finally..i can feel or even 'taste' the happiness juz in a day(18/9)....I would like to specially thank to all my beloved uni frens....I do appreciated the time v had spared together.....

For no reason,v gt to noe each other...
For no reason,v study together...
For no reason,v had a bbq party,and
For no reason,v laughed together,
For no reason,v spent the time fun together....and it was freaking fun....

Erm....actuali fren is reali important to a person like me....i scare the feeling of lonely,or i can simply said i hope my life to b not so bored or too settled...Mayb i am the youngest,this makes me to be so stubborn as i usually being pampered.....No matter how.....love all of u alwiz....V r gals in power,haha(guys no offense ya)....v r friends forever....

Today(19/9),i had watched "TSUNAMI at Haeundae" wif 3 of my fren....Throughout the movies,i was like screaming n crying.....It was a touch yet sad movie...A conclusion from the movie,when u come or face with the moment of death,then u will noe how precious is a human life....Ppl are running for their lifes....It's hard to predict the future....wat v had planned now,it was no 100% guarantee for the future.....Then,v questioned,wat's the point of planning????For fun??No idea!Bt,wat v can do is...Appreciate wat v hav n possesses now....I hav a fren, allow me to use letter of K to represent him/her....K actuali possesses many material or non-material(love btw family members) things for an ordinary students hav,bt K told me he/she do appreciated wat he/she hav bt may b himself/herself possesses many which is more than enuf,so he/she tends to b greddy...Is tat appreciated???To K,mayb it is....This is human being....v tends to demand more n more to fulfill our greddiness(i cant denied,might b i am one of them as i am a human being)....Haha...

The Day U Went Away........Away.......

Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

Did I lose my love to someone better(impossible)
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Well hey
So much I need to say.....
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

I remember date and time
April thirty second
Wednesday eight after four.....

In the doorway with your belongings
No longer shouting at each other(cuz u cant hear)
There were tears on our faces

And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again,again!!!
I know, I guess I really really know

The day you went away
The day you went away

Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone
How could I carry on????
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

The day you went away~~~~
The day you went away~~~~

'The day u went away' by M2M....reali speak n sing out wat i feel inside mt deep heart...

I do alter some of the lyrics which make it closely reflected my real life in the past 5 months....that's the most difficult days i had gone thru in my life......

After all.....will it b fine??

When i got to noe tat one of my fren maternal parent is diagonosed wif an untreatable diseases which same as my dad-lung cancer stage 4.....

I almost stunned of it....
It make me re-think or feel again the pain of watching my dad suffering in cancer pain n of cuz the lost of him...which reali discomforted me...Initially,i was like expressing my feeling-those sadness which surrounded me since the day he left....but,to be honest,I feel so sorry,fren...I noe how u feel now cuz i undergone the unbelievable feeling b4....Yes,it is an unbelievable feeling....you cant even believe tat ur family member is diagnosed wif this kind of disease....

Truly,i wouldnt say anything to comfort or pleased u....cuz when it came to me last time,i choose to b silent,not to share my sadness wif everyone,same goes to u now..U said:"i am too stupid of it...fren is meant to be share everything..."see nw u choose to be silent of it,i guess u understand my feeling....It can be clearly shown,both of us would only bring joys to everyone rather than sadness....or i can say,even they noe about everything,they wont help much...mayb their advice is a kind of support,bt to me,it isn't...I hate those kind of sympathy...

Erm...for wat i had experienced,i would like to share on behalf of myself in order not to live in regret n unforgiving as wat i do now,especially u,do watever ur mum requested on u,dun disobey her....try to fulfill her everything she needs...Nt to scared u of...bt is true....After all,I reali feel so regret,so regret....even 2day(17/9),when i listen to the songs he like in fm radio,my tears will flow out all of sudden....it's uncontrolable....maybe i need time to recover bt not to forget nor forgive myself.....
Love btw parents n their offspring is very typical n wholely...this is wat i feel after the forever lost... Hope everything will be fine eventually....

Question and Answer..

2day i cried again!!!
Becuz i tot of u....i miss u very much....Actuali i feel so embarrassed as ur daughter...i dun noe everything about u.....when u r sick,when u hav to go hospital,i didnt even pick out some time to accompany u for diagnose yea,until when i hav time to accompany u....sad to said,i faced another embarrassed moment again,as when the doctor asked me about ur previous health diagnose condition,i juz able to ans a little(mayb i can give myself a reason,tat is,different daughter accompany u at different time when there is a diagnose in order for me to feel abit of comfort,nt to feel guilt)...letting u alone go to d hospital,yea u can speak a gud command of english,bt u cant see,u r a blind patient.....Am i reali qualified to b a gud daughter????Am i does a daughter job???DID i???I didnt!!!

Besides that,i feel very depressed 2day as I hav a quetion inside my heart,tat is,if a person failed at the very 1st times,2nd times....will he or she success at the following times???or he or she will be failing accordingly from the very 1st time until the infinity time???Gimme some guidance....tell me,will he or she keep on failing until the end/???I keep on wondering...Furthermore, Is hardworking will get u wat u want or help u to acheive ur goals in ur life????If u stop hardworking,then he or she will be getting ntg???Is genius reali exist??Is genius does nt nid to be hardworking??? and they will gt wat they want without a little of hardwork???

Challenge!!!!We meet again......

haizx.....met another challenge 2day!!!!hoooooh~~~i am tired enuf!!!!!
Tell me wat can i do nw?????since this year i tend 2 meet difficulties,obstacles along d way.....ad half a year....i admit i cant withstand anymore,i cant!!!
When i loss my confident to everything,i told myself,nvm...TRY,TRY and TRY it again!!!I noe u can,LIM MAY HING!!!Prove it for urself and others.....ad twice in a year....hw can i stand up again???Hw????In order for me to proceed,i do n i willing to try again to build again my confident....Hope this time is the last time for me to do so.....I want back my confident eagerly,i want back everything i had lose twice in a year.....I said i want,so i will do whatever to win back!!!Believe me!!!GAMBATEH,LIM MAY HING!!!!
"If u think u can,u create the force that u can...."

Sadness makes me hurt in pain....Braveness allow me to stand up again!!!!!

Sad????Yea...I am....
Juz got 2 noe everything i expected will never owned by me,never ever!!!....feel so depressed....Am i not gud enuf????am i too obsessive??am i nt enuf disburse????or am i expected too much???,etc.....
Bt i am very sure i possessed happy b4,though is not a very long period...bt i enjoyed myself very much!!!!......
(It takes an hours...i drawed my conclusion)......I shud be happy of it!!!
Finally....i make a decision,i decided to let go,Yea!!LET GO EVERYTHING!!!!......A moment later.....
ahaha....feeel so light,no more burden!!!Thanks 4 letting me noe and discovered....Hope i will be better!!!GIve me some time.....i will change to a better person....I will,i promised!!!!