Today.....My life.....My thoughts....

Lol.....my image totally spoilt ad...bt nvm, i still like this pic...This is me!!!

Yi Ling and I was so concentrated preparing all the food

Big Big All Gals Family

After undergone so many incident in the past....Finally..i can feel or even 'taste' the happiness juz in a day(18/9)....I would like to specially thank to all my beloved uni frens....I do appreciated the time v had spared together.....

For no reason,v gt to noe each other...
For no reason,v study together...
For no reason,v had a bbq party,and
For no reason,v laughed together,
For no reason,v spent the time fun together....and it was freaking fun....

Erm....actuali fren is reali important to a person like me....i scare the feeling of lonely,or i can simply said i hope my life to b not so bored or too settled...Mayb i am the youngest,this makes me to be so stubborn as i usually being pampered.....No matter how.....love all of u alwiz....V r gals in power,haha(guys no offense ya)....v r friends forever....

Today(19/9),i had watched "TSUNAMI at Haeundae" wif 3 of my fren....Throughout the movies,i was like screaming n crying.....It was a touch yet sad movie...A conclusion from the movie,when u come or face with the moment of death,then u will noe how precious is a human life....Ppl are running for their lifes....It's hard to predict the future....wat v had planned now,it was no 100% guarantee for the future.....Then,v questioned,wat's the point of planning????For fun??No idea!Bt,wat v can do is...Appreciate wat v hav n possesses now....I hav a fren, allow me to use letter of K to represent him/her....K actuali possesses many material or non-material(love btw family members) things for an ordinary students hav,bt K told me he/she do appreciated wat he/she hav bt may b himself/herself possesses many which is more than enuf,so he/she tends to b greddy...Is tat appreciated???To K,mayb it is....This is human being....v tends to demand more n more to fulfill our greddiness(i cant denied,might b i am one of them as i am a human being)....Haha...

The Day U Went Away........Away.......

Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

Did I lose my love to someone better(impossible)
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Well hey
So much I need to say.....
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

I remember date and time
April thirty second
Wednesday eight after four.....

In the doorway with your belongings
No longer shouting at each other(cuz u cant hear)
There were tears on our faces

And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again,again!!!
I know, I guess I really really know

The day you went away
The day you went away

Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone
How could I carry on????
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

The day you went away~~~~
The day you went away~~~~

'The day u went away' by M2M....reali speak n sing out wat i feel inside mt deep heart...

I do alter some of the lyrics which make it closely reflected my real life in the past 5 months....that's the most difficult days i had gone thru in my life......

After all.....will it b fine??

When i got to noe tat one of my fren maternal parent is diagonosed wif an untreatable diseases which same as my dad-lung cancer stage 4.....

I almost stunned of it....
It make me re-think or feel again the pain of watching my dad suffering in cancer pain n of cuz the lost of him...which reali discomforted me...Initially,i was like expressing my feeling-those sadness which surrounded me since the day he left....but,to be honest,I feel so sorry,fren...I noe how u feel now cuz i undergone the unbelievable feeling b4....Yes,it is an unbelievable feeling....you cant even believe tat ur family member is diagnosed wif this kind of disease....

Truly,i wouldnt say anything to comfort or pleased u....cuz when it came to me last time,i choose to b silent,not to share my sadness wif everyone,same goes to u now..U said:"i am too stupid of it...fren is meant to be share everything..."see nw u choose to be silent of it,i guess u understand my feeling....It can be clearly shown,both of us would only bring joys to everyone rather than sadness....or i can say,even they noe about everything,they wont help much...mayb their advice is a kind of support,bt to me,it isn't...I hate those kind of sympathy...

Erm...for wat i had experienced,i would like to share on behalf of myself in order not to live in regret n unforgiving as wat i do now,especially u,do watever ur mum requested on u,dun disobey her....try to fulfill her everything she needs...Nt to scared u of...bt is true....After all,I reali feel so regret,so regret....even 2day(17/9),when i listen to the songs he like in fm radio,my tears will flow out all of sudden....it's uncontrolable....maybe i need time to recover bt not to forget nor forgive myself.....
Love btw parents n their offspring is very typical n wholely...this is wat i feel after the forever lost... Hope everything will be fine eventually....