Question and Answer..

2day i cried again!!!
Becuz i tot of u....i miss u very much....Actuali i feel so embarrassed as ur daughter...i dun noe everything about u.....when u r sick,when u hav to go hospital,i didnt even pick out some time to accompany u for diagnose yea,until when i hav time to accompany u....sad to said,i faced another embarrassed moment again,as when the doctor asked me about ur previous health diagnose condition,i juz able to ans a little(mayb i can give myself a reason,tat is,different daughter accompany u at different time when there is a diagnose in order for me to feel abit of comfort,nt to feel guilt)...letting u alone go to d hospital,yea u can speak a gud command of english,bt u cant see,u r a blind patient.....Am i reali qualified to b a gud daughter????Am i does a daughter job???DID i???I didnt!!!

Besides that,i feel very depressed 2day as I hav a quetion inside my heart,tat is,if a person failed at the very 1st times,2nd times....will he or she success at the following times???or he or she will be failing accordingly from the very 1st time until the infinity time???Gimme some guidance....tell me,will he or she keep on failing until the end/???I keep on wondering...Furthermore, Is hardworking will get u wat u want or help u to acheive ur goals in ur life????If u stop hardworking,then he or she will be getting ntg???Is genius reali exist??Is genius does nt nid to be hardworking??? and they will gt wat they want without a little of hardwork???

Challenge!!!!We meet again......

haizx.....met another challenge 2day!!!!hoooooh~~~i am tired enuf!!!!!
Tell me wat can i do nw?????since this year i tend 2 meet difficulties,obstacles along d way.....ad half a year....i admit i cant withstand anymore,i cant!!!
When i loss my confident to everything,i told myself,nvm...TRY,TRY and TRY it again!!!I noe u can,LIM MAY HING!!!Prove it for urself and others.....ad twice in a year....hw can i stand up again???Hw????In order for me to proceed,i do n i willing to try again to build again my confident....Hope this time is the last time for me to do so.....I want back my confident eagerly,i want back everything i had lose twice in a year.....I said i want,so i will do whatever to win back!!!Believe me!!!GAMBATEH,LIM MAY HING!!!!
"If u think u can,u create the force that u can...."

Sadness makes me hurt in pain....Braveness allow me to stand up again!!!!!

Sad????Yea...I am....
Juz got 2 noe everything i expected will never owned by me,never ever!!!....feel so depressed....Am i not gud enuf????am i too obsessive??am i nt enuf disburse????or am i expected too much???,etc.....
Bt i am very sure i possessed happy b4,though is not a very long period...bt i enjoyed myself very much!!!!......
(It takes an hours...i drawed my conclusion)......I shud be happy of it!!!
Finally....i make a decision,i decided to let go,Yea!!LET GO EVERYTHING!!!!......A moment later.....
ahaha....feeel so light,no more burden!!!Thanks 4 letting me noe and discovered....Hope i will be better!!!GIve me some time.....i will change to a better person....I will,i promised!!!!

My Secret btw 'u' n me.........

It's almost 4 months.......'u' leave us.....
In these months,i try not to think tat 'u' had reali leave us..keep on doing something all days and nite-playing games,watch drama series,complete all my housework and of cuz homework in order not to think of u......Until tat day,when i was driving.....listening to fm......i heard ur fav song..."zhen dik oi ni-beyond"!I cried in d car while i was driving....cuz i rmb those day and time,v had spent together....I admit sometimes i talk to 'u' wif a hard tone ,bt no matter how.....the next day,u will still talk 2 me like ntg.....I'm so SORRY,dad!!!!
I feel it is so unfair for ur leave,cuz u still havent attend my convocation, u havent attend ur 3 daughters weddings,u havent do ur job as a son of grandma,ur grandchildren wont hav a chance to called their grandpa='gong gong'......Nvm....Let me tell u here,Ashton becoming very cute day by day...he got so many funny action which will bring joy n happinesss to us especially grandma after so many bad incident happen previously.....beside tat,ur lovely little Brian becoming very clever as he noe everything...juz like when v ask him,''where is ur gong gong?'',he will replied us:''gong gong oi oi=sleeping''....I am here to hope they can remember they hav a gong gong which love them very much,becuz they are the only two grandchildren which able to c 'u' b4 where others will not hav a chance!!!
Actually after ur left,our family do happen a lot of things.....Ping jie becoming very sensitive wif the term "PAPA'' ,ohh no,is everything about u.....she will cry all of sudden and said she is missing u like crazy.....Yea,i believe she is very sad bt v feel sad too....juz tat v dun express it out...For wat letting others ppl to worried or noe about it????they wont help us....or I can said v ourselves cant do anything....mayb juz miss u will do....Tell 'u' smthg,may jie like gt some illness on her lung....when i gt 2 noe the news,i was like stunned!!!how come all d bad thing are happening around,non-stop,i wonder why......when she told me about her illness, i noe she is very worried n scared,definitely....Bt she is trying to hide of those feeling from me....she said mayb the diagnose is not accurate!!!i noe it clearly inside my heart,she is so worried n scared,she is!!!!!hope things get better soon....May 'u' bless her much and i hope juz like wat she said,the diagnose is inacurrate!!!Ahha....tell u smthg happy la....May jie change job ad lu..her new office is at PUBLIC BANK which located near kopitim!!!lol.....Noe what is her title???her title is Personal Finance Executive(trainee).....salary also gets higher oo!!!!
Lol...PA,i am so worried now actuali....my a levels results will be coming out tml....haixz....i scared the feeling of fail....n i dun like it...bt i noe i wont do well tis time,i noe!!!wat make me surprise is....''Tai Zi'' said me tat my result will nt bad wo....will it reali not bad??Bt i'm the 1 who sat 4 the exam,i noe it very clearly tat did not do well during the exam....so what can i expect from my result????Not bad??hope reali not bad la.....haha...i noe 'u' r scolding me ba.....'u' would said why u alwiz lack of confidence ar???u muz alwiz think of urself tat u can!!!Ok....i hope i reali CAN la!!!haha...Bt i nid ur bless tml....u muz bless me along the way.....n of cuz bless 4 my result!!!!
K ba.....i dun 1 to b so naggy la.....g2 stop here now....anyway,will miss 'u' forever n ever...Love,MH.